I don't want to live?

wow. im am so sorry for your loss. life just seems to be unfair to you right now huh?i know ive been there. we all have so your not alone. first off i just want to say (not disrespecting you or anything) but your mom is just a complete idiot for not being with you right now. she knows that your going through a hard time with your dad and everything and she still doesn't do anything about it. im just so very sorry. but have you told your mom that your on the verge of not even wanting to live? i would seriously talk to her about it. and if you dont feel comfortable talking to her face to face about something like that, then just write a letter. writing your feelings is a lot easier than saying them. just write her a letter (doesn't matter how long it is) and lay it on her bed or in her purse, just somewhere you know she'll see it. hopefully she'll come to her senses. your school counselor seems to be no help at all. and im sorry for that. they should Take their job more seriously. does your step dad have a cell phone that you could maybe call him on while hes away? im sorry to say this but if you have a "friend" that constantly puts you down when he knows that your going through a hard time, then hes not a friend at all. i know that's probably not what you want to hear but you really dont need a friend like that. hes just going to cause you to get more depressed. im sorry about your hamster too. you could always get like a dog or something though. those are always more playful and their great listeners (: but i hope i helped and if you ever need anyone to talk to you can email me @ lovechick73@yahoo.com